Saturday, November 7, 2009

just got back from the exam.
it just wasnt good and wasn't what i'd expected it to be. the style was quite different from the past 10 sets of papers that i've done. i felt like a complete failure while i was doing the paper. i struggled quite badly which i don't know why. did i really not put enough effort for this exam or did trinity increased the standard a little too much this year? sigh. whatever it is it's pointless to know now anyway.

i dont wish to list down what went wrong because i feel depressed enough right now.

Friday, November 6, 2009

HOKAY! ladies and gentleman. tomorrow will be the exam and it's also DADDY'S BIRTHDAYY!!! i've not get any present for him yet though. maybe after the goddamn exam tomorrow. anyway px will do her best tomorrow, wish me luck!! :)

i think it might be.

Wednesday, November 4, 2009

Today wasnt the best of days for me yesterday too actually. i met up with yurong yesterday and she was quite upset due to some ass which i shan't mention names here. i was extremely pissed off with him treating her like that, where is the respect? is this how you treat people? and she's a sensitive girl for god's sake! and i had enough of my psycology faci who happened to act as if he was PMSing for the whole damn day. so after school as usual i ate my banmian with lots of chili padi due to the screwed up day but i wasnt so lucky this time i had bad stomach ache when i went home. i went to sleep at 8pm sharp skipping dinner. yes it's SUPER EARLY for me i broke my own record too. guess the pain and fatigue was too much for me to handle.

this morning lesson was the last for theory and saturday's my exam i've to report 9am sharp. all i want to say is that miss ho didnt give good comments, she said things which made me feel like utter rubbish and i felt like i've wasted all my effort. i doubt my abilities upon her nasty criticism, i would have lied if i say i wasnt affected much. all in all i just hope whatever that i'm lacking in for my exam hopefully with my last minute revision i'm able to clear this final round. it is very stressful for me because i loathe theory very extremely much trust me.
anyway during my revision of theory just now i took a quick break to unwind and had some sudden inspiration so below was what i penned down..


Happily Ever After

There the look upon his face,
i smiled i reminisced and i counted the days
what happened at the beginning was nobody at fault,
roses were red then skies were exceptionally blue
the feelings we had for each other,
you promised me that they were true

i wished for a happy ending just like the way fairytales do
but you didn't wanted it that way so i did what i had to do,
we sat at the coffee table the night sky drowned my sin
give me a chance to say sorry before i take you in

at the last few moments of your dying grace
i hope you remembered what i'd promised you
i swore that our love won't go to waste

so as i dragged you up to my room
planted my last kiss on your lips lest you forget me soon,
i said a slient prayer to help ease your pain
very soon i know things will never be the same

we'll be happily ever after for as long as i live
you know i loved you and i always did
although you are now cold, stiff and hard
but don't worry as nothing can ever break us apart.

Saturday, October 31, 2009

Sweet Sacrifice.

Time and again she finds herself lost for directions
waiting to break out of this circle awaiting to be saved,

whatever that is missing she tries hard to find
complete silence engulfs her not that she didn’t tried,

all the beliefs she had that was once so true
slowly withered away in a world so harsh and cruel,

contradicting emotions occurring within her at the same time
disarray she failed to distinguish the truth,
just look at how the poor anguished soul cries

tormented by guilt hoping to make a decision in time
how precise can the answer be,
when rushing is in the state of mind?

little by little she lets them seep through her veins,
you’ll see the leaves turn red from agony and pain.

she knows it won’t be too long before it’s her time.
afterall the stories end the same way, all one of a kind.

sweet raptured light it ends here tonight.

Friday, October 30, 2009

It is near the time of my month i think. so my moodswing mode : ON.

anyway jelly and i went to CWP to discuss about the upcoming birthday of 2 nov babies on this coming monday. we dinnered together also, thanks for accompanying me jelly! loves. we chat, ate and had a super long long session of girl's talk. and i think that we seems to be quite good at entertaining each other huh? we laughed like hell during ice kachang session by the way HEEHEE.

okay now im going to talk about something which'll spoilt my mood to the max. ready??

as i parted goodbye with jelly i went up the train. train was quite crowded so i entered and stood on the glass panel area which was my favourite place to stone. so the moment i leaned against the panel the same guy who was behind me before i entered the train also leaned against the door (which won't open) and he was leaning so damn close to me its as if he knows me or something so i thought to myself " never mind. maybe he doesnt realize it " so the train started moving and he started to sway and move closer towards me bit by bit.
i was feeling rather uncomfortable because the girl who was holding the pole next to me was "trapping " me i never felt so enclosed in my life before. i swear to god. he kept swaying his fringe despite the presence of me. i wanted to die.

i folded my arms to show that i wasnt feeling very comfortable with him standing so close to me but he actually ignored me and inched closer until he stood just beside me. and i saw him scanning me and pretending to look away and that was it. at that point of time i seriously wanted to punch him in the face till he dies. the period when the train was moving felt like a million years to me so the moment the train stopped i stared at him so he could give way to me to move out. i walked to the other end of the train and stood on the same spot again people looked at me but i just couldnt give a damn about it.

so IF at any point of time you (the retarded guy) chanced upon reading my humble post, yes im refering to you please go and reflect on your extremely revolting actions. seriously i've never ever seen someone so pathetic as you, are you really that desperate? ignoring does not mean that i don't know what the hell you are up to, and im not as fucking retarded as you by the way.
i think that you should really go cut your fringe because it looks so ugly on you, stop thinking that you're oh-so-handsome for god sake. check your reflection in RP's toilet mirror 1st please, i doubt your house have one that's the reason why you're so confident of yourself. right?
seeing the smug look on your fucking shit-face despite you being SO in the wrong simply makes me very pissed off.

i would have easily killed you if you promised not to retaliate back.

Thursday, October 29, 2009

It is time to diet again.
i've been rather lenient with myself recently. i ate alot of sweet stuffs like ice creams, hello pandas, chocolates and what have you. i'm also eating junks such as fried stuffs and oily stuffs thanks to darling yurong i ate 10 freaking NUGGETS just now at macdonals ( it's the 1st time in my life im having 10 at one go by the way). i know whattheheck right this is not so me and to make things worst PMS is not helping my mood swing and my body's craving is going haywired. i need to be on fish + tonnes veggies/greens + H20 schedule asap to kill those adipose cells. jogging & swimming here i come!!

Ps: i need to employ someone to be around me 24/7 just to remind me not to get stressed.

Tuesday, October 27, 2009

i so feel like going back to accappella suddenly that is after hearing Plain white T's sunlight whereby the chorus part was accappella-ed. i miss those carefree days back then in secondary school, i miss singing for choir and accappella, i miss those times when im with my choir clique, i miss practicing in the small and pathetic rehearsal studio, i miss carrying the portable casio keyboard up & down like a mad person, i miss laughing like mad with zhongming and pam during practice, i miss shouting till my voice got hoarse, i miss going back home together with gang after practice, i miss marking the choir's attendance, i miss singing at the stage and public, i miss the sound when all the different parts of voices harmonize as one. in all, i miss singing. i really do.

by the way, Happy Birthday sayang HAZ! :)

Saturday, October 24, 2009

The Finale

So as I write this letter and shed my last tear
It’s all for the better that we end this year
Let’s close this final chapter and say one last prayer.

Maybe this just wasn’t meant to be,
things that’s happening they’re driving me insane
All of that I’ve gone through
I know you won't feel any pain.

Two world spinning apart right from the very start
I should have knew better than to give in to my heart.

At my last few moments I see flashes re-wind from the start
And so I closed my eyes for the last time,
I was getting ready to part.

Pick your favourite shade of black
You best’d prepared a speech
Say something funny
Say something sweet
but don’t say that you loved me.

I was a good girl today. i did my last theory paper carefully and wrote down notes for the 3 questions as told my miss ho. exam's date is approaching nearer as the days goes by and i'm keeping my fingers crossed. i've never flunked *touchwood* any of my practical or theory exams in my entire life before and i hope it will continue on for the sake of my final grade. pretty please? yesterday peilin and me went to attend the lasik talk at wheelock place and we went Borders since we were still quite early. we walked around and there is just so many books that i want to get for myself, if possible i seriously want to buy all the book that's in Borders and kinokuniya. no i am serious. i love to read and thankgod pl shares the same common interest as me if not i'll bore her to death. because when i read i go into my own world. :)

she lend me1 of the books she bought, tuesdays with Morrie, by Mitch Albom the author of the international bestseller The Five People You Meet in Heaven. i read the 1st few chapters and i'm hooked on it. basically it's a really touching, heartwarming and inspiring true story about finding wisdom and the answers to life's profound questions. go read it guys and you will know what i mean.

Thursday, October 22, 2009

Guess what i was late for meeting up again today and so did sharmila thus we cabbed again. it's CABBING THURSDAY remember?!! azmi and mei ling was late too much much later than us, they reached class like 9 plus. tsktsk. oh well, today was a busy day for me i went up and down to get permission from drink stall's aunty then rushed to get the cake from yurong's class and then back to koufu again. then me went deposit the cake and went back class and after which during 2nd break we rushed like mad & celebrated with Su Min!! LOL!! fruit cake was nice, i love getting messy with hands and cream on face, hair and shirt. not to mention eating cake with toilet paper thanks to manton! :)

after school me & rong went early dinner. i ate tomyam noodles with super alot of chili padi. it was super spicy + the hot-ness of the soup and the pain was quite immense scalding of the tongue and burning sensation at the same time but it felt good. usually i take quite spicy stuff, but when im vexed, moody i go for the extreme. go ahead ask yurong bout the thrill we had just now.



i enjoy this very much.

tomorrow's going to be a long day for me.
oh by the way, i MUST not touch fried food, oily food or sinful stuff anymore.
i'd sinned enough already. time to resume jogging and hiphop soon.
okay my bed's calling out for me.

Monday, October 19, 2009

Sunday, October 18, 2009

Execution date's out. 7th november at raffles girls school. all those nonsensical history bull essays and notes i've yet to start memorizing them properly. they're bits and pieces all over the place and so im keeping my fingers crossed. i have another 4 birthday celebrations coming up and they are so so NEAR one another.
OHH my god.
sigh. im getting quite stressed recently thus i need to remind myself to relax, i'll grow old very fast if i get stressed out too easily. HAHAH! sometimes i just find myself getting too serious with stuff happening in my life.
i really NEED to learn to relax.

Tell me what am I feeling? Well, it's hard to explain.

Friday, October 16, 2009

Rainbow Connection
Why are there so many songs about rainbows
And whats on the other side
Rainbows are visions
Theyre only illusions
And rainbows have nothing to hide
So we've been told and some chose to believe it
But I know theyre wrong wait and see
Someday well find it The rainbow connection the lovers, the dreamers and me

Who said that every wish would be heard and answered
When wished on the morning star
Somebody thought of that and someone believed it
And look what its done so far
Whats so amazing that keeps us star gazing
What so we think we might see
Someday well find it That rainbow connection the lovers the dreamers and me

All of us under its spell
We know that its probably magic

Have you been half asleep
And have you heard voices
Ive heard them calling my name
Are these the sweet sounds that called The young sailors
I think they're one and the same
I've heard it too many times to ignore it
Theres something that Im supposed to be
Someday well find it The rainbow connection the lovers, the dreamers and me.

Monday, October 12, 2009

immunology was today and i shot my facilitatior unintentionally and i don't feel okay. it rhymes huh? HAHAHA. anyway this morning meeting up was damn classic, i waited for my dearest sharmila and she was late for like what 20 mins++? azmi over slept so i was waiting alone at the station. in the end we cabbed to Rp and this was the conversation sharmila had with meiling..

sharmila: " hello. ehh meiling ar where are you ar? "
meiling: " i'm in school already "
sharmila: "ehh u can check for me W5 downstairs locked anot? cos we're inside cab now."

and when we're about to reach W5 we saw mei ling waiting downstairs for us and she was holding the door for us. HAHAHAHHAHAH!! i laughed like mad the moment i saw her because she looked SOOO CUTE! who would have thought that she'll hold the door for us? awww so nice of her man. * applaud for her loudly * she even placed a PEBBLE near the hinge of the door to prevent it from closing. so cute right her actions?!! AHAHAHHA!! mei ling mei ling your actions are seriously so amusing yet cute please. :)

im a BEE.

Queen BEE? HAHAHHAHAHA!!

Sunday, October 11, 2009

one's finally down im happy and so tired.
1 word. BUSY. BUSY. BUSY. so many things for me to stress this month. oh god.
anyway till then. TATA! :)